feeling the aftermath

"To be alive is the biggest fear humans have. Death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive - the risk to be alive and express what we really are. Just being ourself is the biggest fear of humans.We have learned to live our life trying to satisfy other people's demands. We have learned to live by other people's point of view because of the fear of not being accepted and of not being good enough for someone else."

- The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz
bio advocate musings

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.-- Neil Gaiman.

'It's 4am, and the streets are awash with red from the rain.Sitting on the curb, a solitary figure, sobre and cast out from the mob of drunks.Your face is a burnt out and overexposed yellow, but in a soft dreamy kind of way.I love you, even as an apparition that haunts my vision.I feel it deep down from within my chest'
                              - SAitou
 
was walking along citylink todae when we saw this gay couple holding hands. it was my first time seeing a gay couple display affections for each other in public (excluding those you see in gay pubs) and i tot it was such a sweet and brave gesture.. 
  
 current music : blowout (acoustic) - radiohead

ym's bday

met up for dinner first in a mexican restaurant at holland v... the food was okie... the amusing thing was that the whole world was at hv that day... bumped in kris and serene... who joined our table briefly... then bumped into yifang and her bf.. i guess there is not alot of places to go to on a fri night ...

bj, winnie and jessie  

bj, winnie and jessie 

smoking sheesha with 'weird' frens

after dinner at holland v, we went down to arab st to smoke sheesha...
it was my first time smoking it (okie... reminds me of smone who asked me when the last time was when i did sthg for the first time) and after the first few puffs and a couple of coughs... it made me feel rather light-headed... i guess the pictures explain best how it was..

anyway, later, the guys joined us...i m so glad they came 'cos i have not seen and hanged out with them for quite some time... rob was witty, as usual.. i m still tickled by what he said abt 'weird' pple...

it has been a great night. i m glad ym enjoyed herself

jessie posing for me... it was her first time too  

me, rob and song  

ym enjoying her puff 

Mori with his new robot suit... din recognise him at first... thought it was a gal 'cos of the tits 

WQ posing as Kyo todae - her costumes and portrayals never fail to impress me...  

One More Time

taken off www.sfs.org.sg 

taken off www.sfs.org.sg 

taken off www.sfs.org.sg 

caught this brillant animation todae

Interstella 5555
(The 5tory of the 5ecret 5tar 5ystem)
- a collaboration between french house group daft punk and famous japanese animator Leiji Matsumoto.
the soundtrack of the animated feature is made up of tracks from daft punk's discovery album, played back to back - think of it as a super long mtv.. and i was so impressed how the soundtrack gel so well with the animation... while each can hold its own... major cool !

film synopsis : a blue-skinned alien pop band - the one seen in one more time mtv - has been abducted by this machiavellian witchdoctor (?) who attempts to use them to complete his plans for universal domination - din realli explain how. Anyway this guy abducts them, sabotages their memories, changed their outfits and pigmented their skin from blue to human skin tones...to make them think that they are humans. and to keep them under his control, he makes them wear what look like tinted shades so that they are constantly hynoptised - literally a manfactured band! complete with a listless look in their eyes. he becomes their manager and the band goes on to top the charts and become a massive success, while the band members become pale shadows of themselves, jus mere puppets who have to blindly fulfill the obligations of being popstars

another amusing snippet - flashbacks which show other aliens being abducted before them and moulded into stars who look suspiciously like music legends from our time - (those i can recognize) athena franklin and janis joplin

so what can i say? ONE MORE TIME !

music i m listening to now : face to face - daft punk

got this from saitou

Cold and Ugly

Underneath her skin and jewelry, hidden in her words and eyes is a wall that's cold and ugly and she's scared as hell. Trembling at the thought of feeling. Wide awake and keeping distance. Nothing seems to penetrate her. She's scared as hell. I am frightened to. Wide awake and keeping distance from my soul. I am scared like you.

- Tool

music i m listening to now : Beck's Everybody's gotta learn sometimes (Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind soundtrack)